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Thursday, March 15, 2012
Himmmm said...
Ryan Fuckhead Oneal. And if there's a hell - they have a special suite awaiting him. Not just for this, but for the HELL he's caused me and so many others. I'll not name his victims, but his filmography and dating history should show that clearly. I learned to let the hate out of my heart many years ago, but some people deserve to reap what they sow. Ryan Oneal is the fucking antichrist. I know, believe me.
11:56 AM
Himmmm said...
When you manage to piss off Steven Speilberg, Aaron Spelling, Tippi Hedren, Brian Depalma, Robert Evans, Charlie Bludhorn, Lew Wasserman, and about 90% of the then-powerful William Morris Agency? You're career is fucked.
The "teen" in the blind is NOT a teen today. The perp IS Ryan O'Neal. Somehow, he still gets TV work. Amazing.
12:09 PM
Himmmm said...
and FYI - Ryan's "peak" was in the late 70s through the late 80s folks.
12:10 PM
Himmmm said...
Lea, spacecowboy, and *girl = you're not wrong.
12:12 PM
[Two of the above posters had guessed Drew Barrymore as the victim. The other called O'Neal "vile." Taking that as confirmation that Barrymore was a victim.]
Himmmm said...
And yes Giulia - you're not wrong too. Esp. the part about Toots [Angelica] Houston.
12:13 PM
Himmmm said...
Giulia? There's more than one victim and more than one answer.
12:14 PM
Himmmm said...
I'm in the middle of a few important biz things at this second, but later on I'm going to share with all of you a story (or two) I promise will make your heads explode in wonderment, and probably make you sick to know this actor is still alive and working. It might confirm your guesses about my identity (ies) but I don't care. Besides, I'm going off the grid for a while to work - so I'm not worried. Maybe a parting shot for a while :-) Back in a couple of hours...
12:18 PM
Himmmm said...
Okay folks - just hang in there a little bit longer. It'll be worth it I promise. I'm waiting on an actress I used to work with (and I'm still friends with) to give me approval to post something very revealing. I'm also busy chaining and gagging my attorney and agent to keep them from attacking me before I post this! lol. It'll be about an hour.
BTW: Lainey? bwahahaahahaha!! Really? Hilarious. hahah!
1:51 PM
Himmmm said...
*girl....uhh, pretty please LAY OFF the David Codikow business please. "The Cod" is a great guy whose never hurt anyone. That kind of speculation can hurt him badly if people even suspect he's posting stuff online. Please, just ease off okay? I'm begging you.
And yes, I too remember the Hollywood Kids :-)
1:55 PM
Himmmm said...
(hello - himjacker here - himmmm reqd. i repost this b/c people having trouble reading in the mass of cmnts. also, it has been edited at the req. of himmm and a himmmfriend. thanks!)
PART ONE:
(NOTE: This is long. VERY long, and detailed. Sorry about that, but it’s a long goodbye. Wow, I’m kind of teary-eyed and nervous at the same time. Like jumping off a high dive the first time - holding a puppy in your arms! lol. Here goes:)
Hello my old friends (and our new guests as well), I hope each of you are well today.
I first started reading CDAN after an actress friend showed it to me. In fact, you’d be surprised how many actors, filmmakers, and musicians read this blog. Some even comment. I assure you that you’re far cooler than any of them (lol).
From the beginning, this thing has been about sharing some tidbits from behind the scenes, enjoying the community, and maybe trying to even help a few people along the way. All courtesy of my friend Enty. It’s been fun, scary, heartwarming, and hilarious all at once. I (and my associates) have enjoyed it totally, and it’s the most fun I’ve had with my clothes on.
Somehow, this “thing” has gotten a little out of hand. Imagine you and your pals sitting around gossiping and talking. Suddenly you realize a hidden camera is on you, and its being broadcast on the net, and every TV station alive. It might freak you out. That’s how it’s felt the past few weeks. Plus one innocent guy getting buried with crap and he’s a good guy too. But on with the show right?
Now I want to share with you a story and info that goes back a long, long way into Hollywood history. It concerns one of the biggest male stars ever, and one of the most beloved female stars to ever live.
She began her career as a child actress, and enchanted the world. Her mom was the ultimate stage mom, and she had an odd upbringing by normal standards. But she was not that bad compared to many child/teen stars we know about today.
As her teen years came into being, she began to rebel against her mom and the morals of the 1950s. In those days a studio owned you totally and your life was created by them. She went on dates arranged by the studios, and the PR people. In effect, she dated a LOT of gay guys too. In fact, she became close friends with many of the town’s biggest gay stars (closeted or not).
She made the transition from child star into teen actress, and did her duty professionally. But inside, she wanted to be wild and dangerous. And when the new breed of method actors came onto the scene - Brando, James Dean, etc. - she loved it and wanted to be part of that scene.
So badly in fact, that when this director began casting for his teen rebel film, she would do ANYTHING to get the part and prove she was not just a pop idol little kid anymore. And yes, she did do ANYTHING she could. She dressed like a femme fatale, drank, swore, and partied hard. She would have sexual encounters with the director at his bungalow, even though he was twice her age and was married. She didn’t care.
She did get the role, and was carved into legendary status instantly as part of this iconic film and its lore. But sadly, her rebelliousness and partying ways opened a door that was hard to close. As a result, a lot of other male stars and directors and producers assumed she’d do ANYTHING to get other roles too. They were wrong.
One day she was invited to meet with this movie star about an upcoming major role. This man was a legend already, and was very powerful. The studios bowed to him, and he had control over films, budgets, and casting. His PR image was that of a stud, and a righteous family man. His real life was dark, seedy, and without a moral compass.
So as expected, the actress - still a teenager - wanted to meet the powerful star to discuss the role. Thinking the herself was powerful and savvy, she accepted the invite. In his hotel room. She never saw it coming.
8:07 PM
Himmmm said...
PART TWO:
Without even discussing the film, this actor - drunk already - began making a pass at her. She politely declined, and excused herself. He wouldn’t have it. He literally threw her down, slapped the hell out of her, and ripped her clothes off. He shouted obscenities at her, continually punched and held her arms so tight he left scars and bruises.
He raped her repeatedly, spitting on her, and did permanent damage to her body. She was bleeding everywhere, with a battered face. She passed out. When she came to, the actor was still in the room gloating, and told her to come see him tomorrow night and he might give her the role. He laughed at her as she fell down, her legs so wobbly and weak. She gathered her torn clothes, and tried to walk out of the hotel and to her car - blood and semen running down her legs and bruises already forming on her face.
She could barely make it back home in her car. She wanted to kill herself, so ashamed of what happened. The damage to her psyche was permanent, and haunted her forever. But her physical pain was intolerable. She got home and her mother was aghast. Her parents blamed her. Her mom said she must have made the actor mad and offended him. They called a doctor, who took her to the hospital secretly to have her treated. When back at home, she stayed in bed and hidden for weeks.
The studio knew, and did nothing. After all, the star actor was a money machine. Even the actresses powerful agents and friends were helpless to punish him, or else they’d be cast out as well. In the 1950s, much like today, you didn’t rock the boat. The actress eventually recovered physically, and for keeping quiet the studio and agents rewarded her with a bountiful career. She grew into an amazing woman with a legendary career. But she never forgot, or forgave, and never got over what happened.
She never named the star actor publicly, but her friends and family knew the truth. Even after marriage and kids, if she saw this actor anywhere - she would almost convulse and cry. And worst of all, Hollywood and the world continued to honor him, pay him, and treat him like a king.
Today, he’s still alive and barely holding on. But those who know the truth are still hoping and praying he will rot in hell for eternity. That all his good deeds and donations will never mask the truth. That he WILL face justice for the lives he destroyed.
So when the time comes, and the now 95 year old Kirk Douglas, the superstar actor, finally dies, there will be tributes and honors about him. Just remember that he is a monster who never repented, apologized, nor showed any sorrow for destroying the lives of others. Especially the life of that young beloved actress named Natalie Wood.
Think about this when you hear about him being honored by the Academy for his “moral force” in the movie community. Think about his own son who died from a drug overdose, and his own big star son who is a walking monster himself. Think of his grandson who dealt drugs and got others hooked on it too. Think about this every time you see a film starring anyone in that family.
8:07 PM
Himmmm said...
PART THREE:
And with that, I bid you all a warm farewell. I’m not walking away from CDAN or anything else due to fear or pressure. It’s because my work is getting neglected - I think you guys can relate! lol. I’ve had a good break lately for family reasons but things are picking up again and I must return to the real world once more. I’ve never asked for any special attention or tried to sell anything, take anyone’s money, or trolled for affection here. I’ve just offered my opinions and experiences. But it’s gotten kind of crazy when people build websites dedicated to your unmasking. (Yes, really. It’s not like I’m a masked superhero right? Didn’t Iron Man already admit his identity? Geesh!).
But seriously folks, the reason for the anonymity is not to hide and tell lies. It’s to protect me or us from repercussions. It’s so we CAN tell the truth. If what I say is a lie then I have no fear of persecution. But when it is the truth? People get nervous, defensive, and they will pursue you. Trust me.
I appreciate each of you who’ve offered your kind words and hugs. Always remember that most “celebrities” do have feelings too. Hypocritical? Perhaps. But a lot of us are real people on the inside and people’s words do matter. But when you’re a pedophile, rapist, abuser, or beat up people and animals? I think you sacrifice your right to compassion if you don’t stop, repent, and get help. Some who are troubled with drink and drugs (like me in the past) do get help. Some ignore it and think they deserve the world and refuse help. They continue hurting others.
I assure you that I am no better than any of you, and I still have problems I try to confront and correct every single day. It’s an ongoing process. Those of you who say you’re a nobody? That your life is boring? Thank God for that. I assure you that fame is not to be coveted or desired. Money is just money in the end folks, it’s what you are to other humans that really matters. There’s far more heroes as good parents, teachers, cops, therapists, volunteers, cancer survivors, nurses, and even the nice waitress who shares a smile on a hard day with a customer. You guys are heroes, not those of us playing dress up and pretend on a set all day. Be happy you can help another - that is what makes the world better, NOT an award or a swag bag.
Always remember that whatever crisis, depression, or problems you are facing in your life - it is not insurmountable. It shall pass. Nobody (especially me) is perfect, and once we accept that and stop running from the problem, we CAN fix it and it will be better. Have faith, and turn to your friends and family and you will be surprised that you’re never alone in your darkness. I wish each of you peace, happiness, and love. Whomever you are, I assure you the world is better with you in it.
I thank you all for the laughs, the snark, the warmth, and the good times here on CDAN. I especially thank you - ENTY. You deserve all the success you have my friend. I also look forward to that thing, with the people, in that place. You know (lol). Enty is a good soul, and I hope you guys realize how awesome he is to share all of this with you. He’s not perfect so don’t put him too high on a pedestal - haha. Good luck buddy.
So to each of you, our long-time pals and cohorts, be good, behave, and be cool. Keep those Blind guess skills sharp, and always mix in some humanity with your snark. Not much, but a little (lol). Take care, and I look forward to catching up with you in the future when I return back and the case is re-opened. Now? I’m off to save the world.
We don’t say goodbye, we say “see you later”.
Your friends-
Himmmm
Herrrr
Himjacker
(and Himmmm 1 -2 and 3)
8:07 PM
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